Day 6: 6 days and I haven't spoken to him.Saw him today after 6 days while I was coming back from office. He noticed me too, but I looked away.
It feels as if I am not myself anymore. Staying away has certainly kept me away from all the trouble but has changed my life a lot.Not going to his place anymore means not only cutting off ties with him, but also not meeting my other friends, which hurts.
I feel so lonely. All I do is keep looking at my cellphone in the hope that he would sms or call.That all would be fine soon and I would be myself again.....but all in vain. Because all is not going to be well. Atleast not the way we were before.

I miss the laughter, the smiles, the nonsense jokes......I miss life!!!

No more sacrifice

You told me not to tell him,
You told me not to be by his side,
You told me to be just friends,
You told me to just let it go by,
You told me I couldn’t cry,
You told me that I shouldn’t try,
For you thought I didn’t love him,
And it was a phase that would pass by,
For you loved him and he loved you,
And so I should sacrifice.

And so I did when you left him,
By being by his side,
Knowing he doesn’t love me,
I still continued to smile,
When he was drunk and spoke of you,
Oh never did I cry,
All I did was to be friends,
And let my feelings go by,
All I did was pray and hope,
That this phase would pass by,
For I love him and he does not,
And no more can I sacrifice.

Day 1 : It was tough not talking the usual with him. But I managed somehow.
            Then one look at his picture and I was in tears.It helped me drift to sleep though.
            The night was plagued with the same dream that has been eating my head for
            quite sometime now.  Its here to stay for a while so I might get prepared to deal with it.
            Hoping day 2 treats me better.