Loving someone has never been easy. But forgetting all about love is even tougher.
Today, when I sit and think through things, I end up analyzing every action of mine in the past. Those actions which seemed right at that moment seem all wrong today.

I feel if I had done things a bit differently maybe he would have loved me today. Love is not about changing for that special someone, I understand. It’s all about accepting the other person as they are. But I don’t feel so today. Even when I know that changing for him would have meant forgetting all about what I am and all about my comforts and beliefs. Today I really wish if I had changed a little earlier in the day for him, there was a chance, a hopeless little chance that he may have liked me and maybe even loved me.
Because that is all I want today. Living like this, longing to be with him each moment is makes me go crazy.

But it’s too late for it now. Yesterday is gone, and today seems hopeless without him. All that can take me through today to the future is acceptance of his decision and hers too.Blaming me for my actions in the past would not help, because deep inside I know that they weren’t wrong. It was just a matter of them not understanding me then and now.

It was a tough fight then and it’s an even tougher fight now because this time I am fighting myself - in the hope of doing the impossible – forgetting my love for him.